I'm hoping for some help and encouragement.....I'm so discouraged. I'm a single mom of 4 kids. My oldest son, whose 9, has autism which wasn't properly diagnosed until last year. I have a 5 year old daughter and 3 year old twins (boy and girl). My oldest son is having a hard time navigating his world and is in constant turmoil. Which in turn puts all of our lives in turmoil. I feel like I'm going crazy!!! I ended up getting fired from my job because I had to leave work and go to school and pick him up as he was having a rough day. I qualify for food stamps but that's it. That doesn't help pay rent, car insurance, medications, shampoo, nothing. We live in rural vermont so a car is a neccessity and all this stressing about money is making everything worse. And christmas is coming upon us besides. And now school has told me that my son needs some special sensory stuff that could help at home like a weighted blanket and hand fidgets but I don't have the money for that either. My ex-husband refuses to pay child support to the point he quits every job when the state tries to enforce payroll deduction. I'm at a complete loss- I'm ready to give up....I can't give them what they need financially or mentally at this point. I'm exhausted with all the worrying and crying. I want to work but who's going to hire someone who has to leave every time school calls or he has a hard day and misses the bus?? So frusterating...... :-(